My guy

My heart was shattered and the pieces scattered. I was feeling frozen, but he found me lifeless and started to find each piece one by one and put them back together, warming my soul as he did. He is patient... He sees me as something important for reasons you have made it hard for me to understand. He is the man that is always in my thoughts and those thoughts are imprinted through each piece of my heart.

He is the man I have waited for...
Not the boy I regret.

Merry lovable XMas

Had the best Christmas ever.. THank you for loving me.. =)

Stranded,,,

Don't You Know I've Tried And I've Tried To Get You Out My Mind But It Don't Get No Better As Each Day Goes By And I'm Lost And Confused I've Got Nothin' To Lose Hope To Hear From You Soon P.S. I Am Still Not Over You.. =(

Friend: Is that your Ex?




Me: Nope! That's the biggest mistake in my life...


Bang!

Pop up!

Hey guys,

It's been 2 months already since I updated you guys.. Oh well nothings change. I have been busy lately. Lectures and duties in the hospital. I lost a lot of weight too. I have been sick also but it's ok. I'm gonna be fine physically but maybe not emotionally.

Since Christmas is coming let me greet you all a Merry Christmas in advance.Hopefully my Christmas will be merry also. Especially in our house. =(

I am happy even tough there were a lot of problem I just put in my mind that every problem has a solution indeed right?

We must have a strong faith in him ( Our Lord Jesus Christ )..

2011 is coming and it's going to be my year they say year of the rabbit. I am hope it will be a wonderful year for us.. =)

Time really flies so fast but it will really take a long time to fixed that was broken..

Hate Vs . Love

Hate Vs . Love

We can hate how we’re sad and tired most of the time, or we can love how happy and energetic we are at times. We can hate how things end when people stop caring, or we can love how things begin with new people who enter our lives. We can hate how we fail at least one or two classes, or we can love how we’re still passing the rest. We can hate how we have trouble sleeping at night, or we can love how we can make it up the day after by taking a long nap. We can hate how we can cry so much and feel like the whole world is weighing down on us with all the sadness, or we can love how we can pour everything out instead of holding it all in and being able to recover after. We can hate how we always think about the past with people that meant a lot to us, or we can love how we have those moments to treasure and remember. We can hate how ugly we think we are and feel insecure and jealous, or we can love how we have beauty that other people see and feel confident about ourselves. We can hate how we argue and disagree with some people, or we can love how we agree to forgive each other after. We can hate how the food we get isn’t what we want so we complain, or we can love that we have something to eat and remember that there are those who are starving and have nothing. We can hate how we get really sick, or we can love how we’re not even close to dying. We can hate how people make mistakes and have flaws that put us down, or we can love and accept them with the way they are and focus on how they lift us up. We can hate how there is so much negativity surrounding us in our lives, or we can love how there is still positivity that will always be there.

We should focus on what’s more important and try to change our mentality a little by simply saying ‘F_ck it. That’s life’ and just keep moving forward and go with the flow, because that’s the only way we’ll be happy and content with our so called “f_cked up lives”.

So, from now on, forget hate, and choose to love.

Missin You.. =(

I miss the days when I'd wake up to a "Goodmorning" text from you. I miss the days when you called me your babygirl. I miss the days you actually seemed like you cared. I miss you. I don't understand it.. You say you care, but you act like you care less.. Am I just not good enough anymore?

One day we will see the reasoning for all the good things but yet the bad things, we will either admire them and laugh or be mad but what about the things that we didn't realize and we could've got hurt or what about the things we didn't see and our friends our family got hurt and yet we did nothing....we don't know how long well be hear in this life but just know your the captain u have the steering wheel....you be look out so you don't regret a thing!

So Lucky..

So there are things were really not meant to be.. and it is really a blessing in disguise..


I Think I found Him!! OMG.. =)

Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone

Sad that your gone already.. =(

I Miss Him

=(

JOhn Cena

I love his shirt!!

pink-just like a pill

I'm Starting to Like DOnKeys!! haha

I Like Shrek! but now I Like the most is his partner DOnkey.. haha..Lol

Keep The Faith Burnin'

Still struggling for survival. I hope I can make it to my destination... =)

Is there Such Thing called Miracle?

Ever since I never asked for anything in my life but to be happy and contented. I am not aiming for anything. Asking for more. All I want is to help them ( My Family , but how will I able to do that if I wasn't able to finish anything. I am still struggling and hoping I will be able to surpass this year. Hoping for a miracle too.... =(

Hoping that you would do the same way too...

BetrayaL

Have you ever experienced being betrayed by a friend? Me? Couple of times. I can't even count anymore but still I manage to be with them. To help them in case they needed help. I was just thinking that despite of everything that you have done for them still they get the chance to destroy you. It hurts me so much when you thought that they will stick by your side. They will lift you up when your down. Now I realized that you can never trust anyone but yourself. We can never learn how to say stop unless you will be hurt so much. For me I can forgive easily even you hurt me a lot of times already because your my friend. I love my friends. but then why is it they tend to hurt you, stab you in the back. Just for what? To gain more friends? Then what they will turn their back on you. I really hate back stabbers. They say they do it because they have insecurities which they cannot solve for themselves. Which is totally absurd.

Here are some tips how to get over a friend's betrayal:


1.
Acknowledge the betrayal. You can't deal with it if you just ignore what happened. Try to understand the betrayal and find out why the person betrayed you. You aren't trying to excuse what happened, but you may find the person wasn't intentionally trying to hurt you.

2.
Speak to the friend who betrayed you. Use "I" statements when you say how you feel instead of "you" statements which attack the other person. Be honest and admit how you are feeling. Acknowledge how hurt you are, how sad you feel and how angry you are.

3.
Confide in someone like a trusted adult or a counselor, especially if you feel depressed. Talk to a friend who cares about you. Pick a friend to help you through this betrayal and ask for advice and support.

4.
Heal yourself. Your friend wounded you, so you need to heal before you can move on. Put some distance between you and let your soul recover from the betrayal. You can't make a rational decision when you are in pain.

5.
Decide if the friend is worth it. List the good and the bad things about this person, then decide if the friend is truly sorry. Make sure you get a genuine apology and not just excuses.

6.
Take small steps. Your friend needs to earn the trust back, but it takes time.

7.
Rebuild the friendship or end it. Even if your friend is truly sorry, you don't have to remain friends. You might not be able to fix the friendship. Forgive the person either way because it only hurts you to hold onto any bitterness and hatred.

HApPy bday Daddy!

It's my father's bday today. So I just want you to know dad that I still remember your special day. I hope that you are now happy wherever you are!


I miss you..:(

DEja Vu

I never thought that this would happen again. I once felt this feeling 3 years ago.When it really strikes me to the point that I can no longer breathe. It's like that your heart was been crushed into pieces. I woke up this morning with a heavy load. So heavy that it feels like it's killing me. There you go again. I told myself. He's not worth it. You will be hurt if you keep on pushing yourself to him.He loves her as much as you love him. He was never been yours at the first place. Txting her saying do u know how much i love U is a sign already that you should stop this stupidity.. =(

So now I will let you go. Be with her I know you will be lot happier rather than being with me. Thank you even in a short while you made my life happy. You have no idea what I felt right now..

LOst

I'm totally lost right now. Still not in the mood to post something..What I feel right now is that I'm not in myself anymore.

I hate what is happening to me
I hate what I've just done lately
I hate myself for being careless and not able to value it.
Last, I am so sorry for myself for being bad.

Tired Of waitiNg

No reGrets

ALmost OVer You

I really thought I was over him.. But When I saw him that afternoon I felt sad. I can't explain how I felt during that time. It's like the world suddenly stops. I hate this feeling


It's like I want to hug him at the same time I want to slap his FACE!!

Life's a climb

As i watched Hannah Montana the movie last night. I've learned a lot from her. From being rich then turned her life living in an urban area. I really like the movie. Where in there are things that we need to accept. Even tough we are not that lucky we must know how to appreciate little things. Being surrounded by the people around you is enough already. For me I am happy that I have my family who is always there for me. I don't need someone just to fill up loneliness in life...=D

SpeciaL ExaM..=(

I'm really frustrated regarding my special examination. I was shocked because they gave me a different set of Examination papers.And then it came from a major subject. Almost 180 items then most of it were identifications and enumerations. They said that they change the way they gave special exams but then it was so unfair because we already suffer from the expenses in our school another problem will add on to it. It won't do good at any students if they keep on pursuing that kind of policy or what. I'm not a genius like some of their students. They are so unfair. I wanna cry that time when i took the special exam. It was not our fault that we were delayed of paying.I was hoping that they would understand. But I was wrong. I hope God will help me with this only he can truly understand.

OPen ReLationshiP...

Just because she wants an open relationship might not mean shes out to dump you or screw other guys. Women can play it off, but in an open relationship just as you they get worried if you go out with a girl (friend) just as you do when she goes out with a guy (friend).She just needs space and time to sow her oats and figure out if he is the one. She doesn't want to lose him, but she is unsure of her feelings. She is giving them both the opportunity to see if they really do want to be together and be committed because right now, she isn't sure and she doesn't want to place restrictions on him if her verdict is not in his favor. He needs to be patient and not so needy. This is a test for both of them. The only way to fail it, is to not be honest about how they really feel about each other.An open relationship is fine. Both side can do he they like. But the important thing is you can not hurt your love!when someone says they want an open relationship, it means they want a person to commit without all the talk and the meaningless blathering that goes on about why we argue, what we like and don't like and where or when you're gotten your face painted at the fair. maybe it means you just want you have a decent friendship, someone to share poetry with and admire for the beautiful person they really are on the inside and outside.

We're GOing to Miss You Cuz RJ..=(

I didn't get enough sleep lately. Last night I just received a bad news about my second cousin. 2 days ago he was texting me. Checking if how am I doing. Then horrible thing happened. He died last night while sitting at Burger Machine. They said it was a short circuit. He was so young then. It was so early. I can't sleep during that time. I still remember how he texted me.He's a nice kid. He's the only boy then. I remember also last month it was EM's Thanksgiving party. We were in the same table. Drinking our favorite Boracay Mix. We were so happy back then. I'm really so sad about it. I hope your happy Cuz wherever you are now. May God be with you always...We will miss you...=(

Step Up 3D (2010) Also known as: Step Up 3

i have watched step up around four times and step up 2 around six times in less than one week. I'm addicted to the step-ups all of a sudden which is weird.

i am already excited for step up 3. it's entitled "Step Up 3: Don't Stop" (if i'm not mistaken.) i am not even sure about this because i read it somewhere that it's still unconfirmed....so there.

if there will be a step up 3, I'll be sure to watch it on its opening day. YEAH!

So Far sO GooD....=D

I'm okay now. Even though I'm tired. I'm enjoying my life at school and with my friends. I don't mind anymore those people who used to hurt me. I'm more happier now. I'm enjoying the company of other people. That's it. I'm glad of what's happening to me now. Thank God....=D

WTF!!

I'm so mad right now. I just received a news lately, saying that " ahh C angel patay na patay na sakon"..WTF!! Are you OK? Your nothing to me now!. It doesn't mean that someone is showing that she cares for you she still loves you. After what I've done this is how you will repay me? Go to hell. I really don't know why in the hell he said that. What's with you? As if u know me for you to say those things. I've been good to you. I'm always there when you needed help, without asking anything in return. I'm so pissed off. I hope you will read this blog. So that you will know that I will never forgave you. I had forgiven you once and once is enough!! Look at yourself. You're life is miserable. Why don't you fix it first. I really hate you. I hope I won't ever see you face again.I really don't know why instead of admitting their faults they denied it. Acting as if he's ignorant and not guilty. It's not new to me. Even way back your good liar and she says your also user?..Hmmm.. I was really so unlucky to met you.If I could only use a time machine.I will turn back the time and wish that I should not met you..

Meet my GaLfrends..=D

They are my amega's.. =D

Meet My Jacob!!

I'm inlove again..haha.. The sexiest man alive for me!! My one and only. The perfect gut to be with..And The hottest guy in the world!!.. Taylor Lautner forever!!..=)

TGIS

It's my last day of school. Actually my plan for today is to go to ilo-ilo but when I found out that we will have an important orientation regarding our duty in Victorias. My first duty was DR ( Delivery Room ) in short I have to assist for deliveries. Which I missed doing. I'm a bit scared cause it's been 2 years already. So I'm not sure about the right thing to do. So I will just let myself observe for awhile. At this moment I got nothing to do so I decided to write again another blog. There's nothing new regarding what I've been doing lately. I got only 1 subject but I still have class on Saturday which totally sucks! This is the only batch that has class during Saturday except for make up classes. Oh well. Only 1 year to go so I need to be more patient. Then I got good news today. I'm so happy that's why I need to go to ilo-ilo asap. So until next time. Need to rest. Need to wake up early for my trip. goodnight everyone..=)

Treat Love Like a Butterfly.

I just learned this one lately in my class. My prof has a point. Why in such a hurry when there is more to come. You will not notice it it will just fly on your shoulders like a butterfly. Why waste your time chasing it? When you can sit their and it will just fly unto you. There are so many things I've learned today. So, for now. I will enjoy my school days and work hard on my grades. I will let my heart rest for a while. Now I'm aiming to have a grade not lower than 80. I hope I can do this. I know I can now that I'm more focused and determined. It really helps me a lot. Eventhough I'm not totally happy, but maybe in the future I will be. =)

TaLL...( Y )

I want to share this to you. I used to call him tall. He stands I think 5'11?.. As in super tall. One time while I went to get some water they were in a huddle. I was wondering why he look shock when he saw me. Then after that he's teamates and TL are teasing him every time they saw me. I don't know if they are just making fun of me or what. Until one time, he's TL ask TL Jp my boss about me. And then the next day he's TL called me. He wants me to meet tall. Funny cause he's like a girl. He's face was in all red ( blushing ). He was so cute that time. I just smiled and left their station. I don't know if he already knew that I resigned already. I'm a bit sad because I will not be able to get the chance to see him again.. =(

My first day oF sChooL...

Oh well, this is my first day of school. I was able to meet my new classmates. Good thing my friend Lyka is with me also. It will be not hard for me to adjust to them. As I observe them. They were noisy but I like it. Then I met my first prof Sir PaO. He is so cute!! hehe.. It's my lunch break now and I decided to update you guys. So until nextime...Chao!

Knock You Down Remix

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Love this SOng..LAb LAb ett!!hehe..=)

i ♥ EZRA BAND

1. Norberto "Nor" Rayray - "PIANIST" 25 years old, Jan. 30, 1985, BS Agri Economics, employee of Department of Labor and Employment XI

2. Karen Jade "Kaye" Cal - "VOCALIST "21 years old, Feb. 11, 1989, AB Architecture

3. Glenn Edward "Jester" Kadusale - "GUITARIST" 24 years old, Oct. 15, 1985, Computer Science

4. Bonjohn "John" Bahala - "Percussion?"24 years old, July 28, 1985, Computer Science

I was moved the first time I have watched this group... so amazing and talented!
ya'll have brought so much inspiration to all your viewers
indeed DON"T STOP BELIEVING!...

and yeah kate I like your voice... so relaxing in the ears!
i'm looking forward for your future performances...

Quotes of the Day.

Mentally I have convinced my self that I am over him. I could stand right next to him, and see him as just another guy. But emotionally, I still see him as the only one for me...=(

It's sad to think you'll never be mine, but it's sadder to realize I knew this all the time...

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Sometimes--no matter how long, or how much you love someone, they will never love you back and somehow you have to learn to be okay with that..

Am i Ready?

I was busy these couple of days so I wasn't able to write a new blog. Now that I'm done with everything I can now update you guys. I'm going back to school. I've been through a lot of problems lately before the enrollment. Thank God, I was able to enroll at last. This will be a new chapter for me. A new challenge. Back to the terror C.I's, Return demo's and hospital duties. I have fears but then I need to overcome them. Funny because they will call me ("Manang")...hehe.. But they look older than me!.. I really missed school. Now, I'm more focused like before to aim my goal. To be a registered nurse someday. good luck to me!!..=)

My Quotes of the Day

Why is it easy to fall in love and yet so hard to be loved back? why should I feel such if destiny permits me not? why do I have to fall if it's you I cant have? why is there a "you" in "me" but never a "me" in "you"?....



Why do you always look for someone perfect when what you really need is someone real?
Why do you take for granted someone who cares a lot for you?
Why do you fool around when you know someone gets hurt?
The answer is simple: ’cause you love and value yourself more than anyone else that you fail to value those who love you more than themselves :(

People must try to be sensitive of other’s feelings,because not everyone is strong enough to endure pain…after all, there’s no anesthesia for a broken heart

Meet WWE Champion John Cena

John CenaStats
Height: 6 foot 1
Weight: 240 pounds
From: West Newbury, Mass.
Signature Move: Attitude Adjustment, STF
Career Highlights: World Heavyweight Champion; WWE Champion; U.S. Champion; World Tag Team Champion, 2008 Royal Rumble Winner
Entrance Video: WATCH

Let’s be honest: hailing from the rolling hills and broad valleys that constitute West Newbury, Mass., will likely never earn you “street cred”--unless, of course, you’re John Cena. Then again, it didn’t happen overnight for him, either. Long before he became the Dr. of Thuganomics, young Cena had to endure the neighborhood rocker kids’ taunts about his baggy pants and rayon Kwamé shirts. His love for freestyling lyrics about rebellion and individualism just didn’t fit within the small rural community. By the time he turned 15, however, those same kids would stop teasing him, for it became apparent that Cena had been developing another passion: hitting the gym.

After applying to more than 60 colleges (and being accepted by 58), Cena attended Massachusetts’ Springfield College, where he excelled as a Division III All-American offensive lineman and team captain for the Pride. But as much as he fondly remembers his college football accomplishments, he’s equally as proud of earning his degree in Exercise Physiology, which he attributes to making him a smarter, more durable performer in the ring today.

Though a huge WWE fan since childhood, rooting for heroes like Hulk Hogan, Ultimate Warrior, and Shawn Michaels, Cena had honestly never even considered a career in WWE. Instead, he flew out to California in 2000, to pursue a profession in bodybuilding (a move he now admits to making simply because his father had told him he wouldn’t make it out there). But while working behind the counter of Gold’s Gym in Venice, a discussion with a wrestler-in-training encouraged Cena to enroll in classes at Ultimate Pro Wrestling. He was instantly hooked, and became motivated to learn everything he could about his newfound craft. He obviously proved a quick study; within a year, World Wrestling Entertainment signed Cena to a developmental contract to train at Ohio Valley Wrestling. By June 2002, he had joined the SmackDown roster, and less than a year later headlined the first of what has since become countless main-event matches.

That said, Cena has never forgotten his roots. In fact, remembering where he came from has helped him evolve into the man he is today: a well-versed hip-hop artist, a successful movie star and a blue-collared Superstar who’s always ready to fight. He leads his WWE fan-based army into battle with the mission statement he’s been down with since Day One: hustle, loyalty and respect.

i ♥ BOra... =)

It was my first time to visit Boracay. We travel almost 6 hours from Dumangas port in Ilo-Ilo. It was almost 1 am when we arrived at Dumangas port. It was so tiring that I couldn't sleep also. I'm really afraid of travelling early in the morning. I had fears that i could not explain but before that I prayed to have a safe trip with them. We were fetch by the armies. They called them Sarge for Sergeant. They are really serious. I'm also worried cause I think they are sleepy also while driving. Good thing we arrived at Caticlan safe and sound. Thanks to them. Then a pumpboat came to fetch us from Caticlan to Boracay. Exact date June 05, 2010. My 8th monthsary at work. The most unforgettable date of my life so far (5).. =)..Lastly this was my first time to wear a bikini..hehe..shoot...

Why Not mE?...=(

I believe when relationship don't work out I believe 50 percent or more of the pain is rejection. You ask yourself why not me? Time apart will allow you to become a better you. Then surround yourself around people who enjoy your company. Date guys who treat you right. Don't take advantage of them. But enjoy their company. Keep yourself busy. Just simply live life better than before that guy. Also pray god bless him. Get your mind ready for him being with another. So when it does occur your not heartbroken. One day I was thinking why I took a end to relationship so hard. I realize because I saw myself as the loser. Stop thinking that you lost anything and realize you lose some to win some. You have yet to see what will come your way next.

OMG....

LOve this song..OMG ny usher feat.wiLL I am. How i wish I can say that again..Say that Im Inlove again finally...

End of Summer...End of my stupidity also..

I think everything has to end. It's almost 1 am and I'm still awake. I can't sleep. I've been thinking of so many things lately. Will I ask for a sign?. Or should i do it quickly as possible. Nahh..I'm still happy and that's all that matters now. If it's not meant to be then it will never be. I already accept the fact about it. My stupidity has to end. I hope when I get back to school I can focus well and not able to think of him. I guess the very first person that made me feel this way. Almost makes my life complete, But I guess nothing is really permanent in this world. So I'm thankful even in a short while God let me borrowed him.

"You never stop loving someone; you just learn to live without them.

This situation is always an unfortunate one. It is ideal for 2 people to love each other the same, and at the same pace, but life is never ideal. To get this kind of relationship to work, you need patience! You have to weigh either waiting for him or moving on as options. If your feelings are real, and you choose to hang in there, you must not scare her away with your feelings! If things are meant to work out, you should be great friends before lovers anyway. While you let both your feelings reach equilibrium, you'll find it becomes easier sometimes just to ignore your strong feelings for him and just kick-back and chill with him. It's not always important to impress him, or do nice things for him in a loving way. It may give you hope to know that he can see you in the same light, just not so quickly.

Tough circumstance - being in love with someone who does not feel the same way as you do. It's not a problem - you can fix those, this is almost like "it's raining outside" - just have to deal. Objective advice: If someone doesn't feel the same way as you do - walk off. Don't even give them the privilege of friendship because you'll suck yourself back into the delusion. Do things for yourself, keep busy, bury yourself in work and keep searching for what you really want and need. Don't do what I have done.

It is strange when you’re hurt from rejection, to hear someone say: move on things will be fine. No matter how much you love him, he never loves you back. For all those wondering what went wrong, I can say one thing, just stop wondering say it really aloud "HE IS JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU". Only when one stops chasing and pursing someone who doesn't love you, will you open the door to that perfect person who will love you back with the same intensity that you will love him.

Tough one. If we know for a fact there is no hope for a mutual love, then why torture ourselves. Move on. Treat it like a divorce. FORCE yourself to live and keep meeting people. You owe it to yourself to be available for when the right person does come along. Love is like a bus stop, there's always going to be another opportunity for the bus to stop again -- if we are ready for it at the bus stop. Sometimes we don't ever think we could possibly find someone better than that one we are in love with, that doesn't return the love back, but that's not true. We just won't be ready to find it if we are pining for a love that is not healthy or returned. We owe it to ourselves to always know we deserve what's best and healthy. Stop being around that person, if possible. If you can't, then think in your mind about how wonderful it would be to actually find someone special that returns your love. Tell yourself that you deserve it. We can't control love no matter how hard we try. It's just one of those things, but we can choose to love again. Work out, write your thoughts on paper and then shred it but sometimes it helps to get your thoughts out of you, in writing. It's like a release or venting. Then rip it into shreds and flush it or shred it so it can't be found to possibly humiliate you later.

Time. Letting your own grieve and actually being ok with that. Not forcing ourselves to get over someone. Allow your own to feel the hurt, cry, write about it, and listen to sad songs. Soon you will feel so tired from hurting all of the time. You will be ready to move forward. Doing this without contact of the person you love is best. Anyone that will still see you, sleep with you, and spend time with you, knowing they don't love you, and knowing how you feel, is selfish. Everyone deserves more than that. You can't force love out of your heart so don't try, that just hurts worse and you end up lying to yourself. You are human for loving, but you have to love yourself more. I do agree with comments on staying busy, friends and family also help. Casual dating can backfire however, because if the dates don't go well, it will just make you miss the person you love even more. Pray, and remember the good times but learn from the bad. Don't you want, one day, to be truly happy? Life is too short to give up the chance of true love for ourselves. Go out into the world and continue to be the wonderful person that you are. Someone will see this, and love you just as much as you are capable of loving.

You accept yourself as you are, love yourself for who you are, forgive yourself for decisions and actions that have brought you pain, never settle for anything less then what you desire and deserve. Love is all about timing, make yourself the best person you can be both mentally and physically and do it for you, no one else. Once you do that, you will no longer waste your time on man who do not see you for who you are. You will see yourself as a beautiful woman that has so much to offer the right man. But to be able to get over lost love you have to be able to forgive yourself, whether it was your fault or not. You also must make a conscious effort to get him out of your life. Keeping him as a friend will bring only more pain, this is from experience. Let him go, delete his name off your cell phone off your email, put the pictures away. It is your choice to be miserable about the situation, which for the first few months everyone chooses to be sad. But you can also make the choice to be happy, but only YOU can do that. You have one life, why sit there and waste it on a person who can't see all facets of your beauty. Be happy, love yourself, forgive yourself and you will see that that love will radiate and men will be attracted to that. Good men will be attracted to your positive self worth. And that positive self worth gets rid of all the baggage from past relationships that ruin current ones. But this is a choice, a conscious choice to leave the past and be happy and only you can make it. Know one thing, it won’t be easy, but in the end you will have the love you have always desired.

Its mY Off..

Excited to watch Prince of Persia. It's time to relax anyway.So since it's my off. I went to Bacolod spa and spent my whole aftie there. After a relaxing body massage I went to L'sea for some Siomai and Hot tea.. What else... Maybe will have a dinner at lord byrons with anne and kentoy...Just love it when it's my off..=)

Im Sick....

I'm Sick and tired of whats happening to me right now. That's why I asked my self..Did I made the right choice?. Some of my friends says yes you did, But why is it that its telling me " No just continue what you are doing and maybe you will find the answers to your questions". I'm so confused right now............

Will you never get tired loving someone who doesn't love you back?

I think it is really about expectations: if you expect this person to someday love you in return, you will most likely be disappointed (and at some point, tired, angry and/or resentful). But if you just love this person without expecting their love in return, and enjoy their company without trying to obligate them (a very hard thing for many to do) then you are less likely to be disappointed and let down.
Recognizing that love is a gift is the first step. And, that everyone has free will, and so you can't change their feelings is the next... try not to let your feelings for one prevent you from feeling love for another, or being loved by another. It is hard... but it can be done...=)

Love Music. ...

Some believe, as I never used to, that soulmates do exist. That there is one person in all the world that can bring about ultimate fulfillment, boundless love, and perfect completeness in your life. That such things are written for us in the very stars, through the Fates, or merely in our very biology. That if you never find that one, you will never be completely happy. But when you do find that one, you know it through and through, to the tiniest microbe of your being. I had never believed in this. I always thought music was my soulmate, for want of a better word. Music has always inspired me, lived within me, flowed through me beat for beat with my very heart. Music has been the background of all my life's moments, both in joy and in sadness, in love and in loss, in companionship or in my lonliest hours. Music has always been there, and I have adored it with a passion I never felt for anything, nor anyone else.

I, like most people I am sure, can name the tune that played, either in their mind, or around them, through all of their biggest lovelife moments. The first kiss. The first experience of lovemaking. The first great heartbreak. However, music has been so a part of me that I can recall the music that played around me, or in me, at most of my smaller moments as well. The first cup of coffee I ever drank. The first day of a new job. The first song I ever put on a cell phone. Yes, it may seem strange to most of you, but I am that musically inclined. Is it any wonder that music has been my one true love?


I shall always love music. It is my first love. But I have found the greatest gift a woman could ever receive. The ability, and the joy, of being able to keep my first love, and my last love, in my heart together forever.


Until next time, my loving friends. Keep the music of love, and the love of music, in your hearts and souls.

ReUnited AGain...

We've been friends for almost 5 years now. It's been a year already since we were reunited again at LOgs Place..=)

Meet TYLER CAGE...

Channing Matthew Tatum

Channing Tatum was born on April 26, 1980, in a small town called Cullman, outside of Birmingham, Alabama. Growing up, he was full of energy and somewhat troublesome, so his parents decided to enroll him in different sports such as track and field, baseball, soccer, and football to keep him out of trouble. In the ninth grade he was sent to military school. It was there that he discovered his passion for football and his hopes became centered on earning an athletic college scholarship. Channing's goal was finally met, and in his senior year in high school, he was recruited and earned a full athletic college scholarship to a school in West Virginia.

Tatum is also skilled in Kung Fu and in Gor-Chor Kung Fu, a form of martial arts, in which he has earned belts in both. Channing later left college and, in the meantime, worked as a construction worker and mortgage broker and salesman. He has modeled for Abercrombie & Fitch, Nautica, Gap, Aeropostale, Emporio Armani, and has been featured in television commercials for American Eagle, Pepsi, and some very popular mountain dew commercials.

Early life

Tatum was born in Cullman, a small city in Alabama, the oldest of eight children; he has French, Irish and Native American ancestry. His family moved to Mississippi when he was six, although he visits Alabama, where his mother's family still lives, every summer. Tatum grew up in the bayous near the Mississippi River, where he enjoyed a rural existence, including "All the rattlesnakes and alligators a boy could possibly chase, fishing every day, Pop Warner football league, stuff like that". Tatum was athletic while growing up, playing football, soccer, track, baseball and martial arts, and had "a lot of energy", although he says that "Girls were always my biggest distraction in school". During the ninth grade, he was sent to a military school, where he played on the football team. Tatum won a football scholarship to Glenville State College in West Virginia, although he soon lost interest in the sport and turned down the scholarship, citing his dislike of the demands of playing football.
Tatum returned home, feeling that he'd disappointed his parents.He soon worked in construction, an animal nursery, and at a clothing store. During this time, he developed an interest in club dancing.

Career

Tatum's first experience was in the fashion industry as a male fashion model. He was first cast as a dancer in Ricky Martin's She Bangs music video, after an audition in Orlando, Florida; he was paid $400 for the job. He subsequently signed with a modelling agency in Miami, and appeared in Vogue magazine. He soon appeared in the pages of Citizen K, and Contents, as well as campaigns for Abercrombie and Fitch, Nautica, Dolce & Gabbana, American Eagle Outfitters, and Emporio Armani. Tatum has also starred in a few television commercials for American Eagle Outfitters, Pepsi and Mountain Dew, and was picked as one of Tear Sheet Magazine's "50 Most Beautiful faces" of October 2001.
Tatum has said that his modeling career has helped him with his life, specifying that "It's made my life, and my family's life, a lot easier, because I never knew what I wanted to do and now they don't really have to worry about me anymore. I've been able to explore life, and through exploring it I've found that I love art, I love writing, I love acting, I love all the things that make sense to me. And I've been given the chance to go out and see the world, and to see all the things out there. Not everyone gets that chance".
Tatum began his acting career in 2004, appearing in an episode of the television series CSI. His first feature film role was in 2005's high-school drama, Coach Carter, playing Jason Lyle, a street smart basketball player opposite Academy Award Nominee Samuel L. Jackson; Tatum also appeared in Twista's "Hope" music video, which accompanied the film. In the same year, Tatum had an uncredited bit role in War of the Worlds when posing as boy in a church, a factory endorsed top cycle racer in Supercross, and part of the supporting cast in Havoc. Although Tatum has said that he "love[s] modeling", he has taken a break from the profession to concentrate on his acting career, saying that he prefers making more mature movies.
Tatum was originally scheduled to play Gengis Khan in director Sergei Bodrov's epic, Mongol, but was replaced by actor Tadanobu Asano. Tatum also auditioned for the role of Gambit in X-Men: The Last Stand, but was not cast as the character was eventually removed from the film. The film's producer, Lauren Shuler Donner, noticed Tatum and cast him in the film She's the Man, where he plays the love interest of Amanda Bynes' character. The film opened on March 17, 2006.

Tatum in Step Up, 2006
Tatum's most recent roles were in Step Up, a dance-themed romance which opened on August 11, 2006, and the 1980s-set drama A Guide to Recognizing Your Saints, in which he plays Antonio, a street youth in Astoria, Queens. Tatum has described the latter film as his "first dramatic role"; his performance received positive notices at the 2006 Sundance Film Festival, where the film premiered. Tatum's next film role will be in director Kimberly Peirce's Stop-Loss, about a soldier returning home from the Iraq War.

Personal life
In August 2006, columnist Janet Charlton reported that Tatum has been dating his Step Up co-star, Jenna Dewan, since 2005; the two met on the film's set.

Awards
2006
Special Jury Prize
Dramatic, for the ensemble cast
A Guide to Recognizing Your Saints
Shared with Robert Downey Jr., Shia LaBeouf, Rosario Dawson, Chazz Palminteri and Dianne Wiest

Shrek Forever After' tops box office with $71.3M (AP)

"Shrek Forever After" roared its way to the top of the box office, making $71.3 million in its opening weekend.

But the fourth film in the monster franchise from DreamWorks Animation had the weakest debut of all "Shrek" sequels, according to studio estimates Sunday. "Shrek 2," from 2004, opened with $108 million. "Shrek the Third," from 2007, made $121.6 million in its first weekend.

And the latest installment was available for the first time in 3-D and IMAX 3-D, where ticket prices are higher — up to $19 in Manhattan. "Shrek" made just under $5 million on IMAX screens, or 7 percent of the film's weekend gross.

This time, Shrek — voiced as always by Mike Myers — is experiencing a mid-life crisis, so he makes a deal with Rumpelstiltskin to live as a fearsome ogre again for one day. Cameron Diaz, Eddie Murphy and Antonio Banderas return to the voice cast.

Last week's No. 1 movie, "Iron Man 2," dropped to second place with $26.6 million. The superhero sequel from Paramount Pictures has now made over $251 million in three weeks.

The other new wide release, "MacGruber," opened in sixth place with a disappointing $4.1 million. Based on the "Saturday Night Live" sketch, the Universal Pictures comedy stars Will Forte as a bumbling version of the mulleted '80s television character "MacGyver," who was famous for his makeshift method of defusing threats.

But "MacGruber" was a relatively low-risk production because it cost under $10 million to make, which was offset by tax credits and foreign sales, said Geoffrey Ammer, head of worldwide marketing for Relativity Media, which produced the film.

"The honest answer is, it never expanded beyond its `SNL' audience," Ammer said. "We took the picture to (the) South by Southwest (film festival), it got a great response, we took a shot with the picture and we were disappointed but by no means were we at risk at any point."

Hold you Down

You don't know how much you mean to me
Whenever you down
You know that you can lean on me
No matter the situation
Boy, I'm gon' hold you down
..................
Love this song... This is for you ..=)

Ready FOr SOme Shots...?

Atlast got the chance to write a new blog again. Just arrived from my vacation leave. How did I spent my first vacation leave? hmmmm. Oh well I thought I will stay in iloilo for only a day but then thanks to my cousins who are always there for me. If it wasn't for them I didn't get the chance to meet choco. He's so cute and huggable. I already missed him. My first day in iloilo was fun. That time it was our fiesta(food anywhere)I got the chance also to spent more time with my highschool friends. I missed them so badly. Then drinking session starts. Early in the afternoon i was already drunk. Imagine.Thanks to dadi( cuz wilmer ) who is my knight and shining armor..hehe. But then after that we went to plaza ( disco time ). We went home around 4am. Didn't get enough sleep because I left mu phone at my cousins house, and also I need to wake up early. Next destination was Guimaras but then my Tita Melds told us that since it was mothers day we will go out. That night we went to Smallville. Finally. hehe.Unfortunately, Mo2 was closed due to liquor ban... I hate it.Since it was closed we sent to boardwalk. Its like Manila Bay. Went there for biking. It was fun. The place was nice. Good for couples. The next day we went to Guimaras at Kelapa Beach Resort. After that the night was still young. Cuz mJ made a Boracay Mix. The best Boracay Mixed ever. That's how I spent my vacation leave. It was one hell of a shot.

Ready For the new me...

Need to Update my blog soon.=)

Depressed? Eat ChocoLate!!

Yes eating chocolate is also a mood booster. It is good for depressed people like me?haha. Yes I admit it. I'm depressed right now. Just got home from SM with my friend Tin. We went first went @ shakeys and then we tried the ice cream @ Bobs cafe. Even tough it's not obvious but damn!! yes I am depressed. I hate what I'm feeling right now. I hate him.I hate that I love him so. I hate it when he just took me for granted. I almost gave up everything. It really hurts to want everything and nothing and the same time. So goodbye to you.And goodbye to everything I thought I knew. You are the one I love the one thing that I tried to hold on to....Meanwhile, thanks to chocolates I'm ok now. And thanks to (first) for the wink!. It made me feel so good for the meantime.=)

Finding Closure...

How do you tell your heart that it's not supposed to feel for a certain someone anymore? How do you go about finding someone new, when your heart is calling you a traitor the second you think about it? Closure can be a difficult thing for many people to find. It's often as obscure as finding love itself. And, if you truly felt that the person who has departed was THE one, it can make your task of finding closure that more difficult. Like many things worth finding though, it may be difficult, but it's not impossible. When you feel like you'll never move on, or your heart will never love again, try the following ideas to help you find the closure you need and, quite frankly, deserve.

*Ceremonial Goodbye
Often closure is difficult to find because a person wasn't given a proper chance to say goodbye or have a say in the ending of the relationship. It is usually much easier for the person breaking up to move on because they came to terms with the decision before even letting you know about it. To give yourself this same opportunity, collect everything that reminds you of your past love together. Put it in a box. At a time where you can have a few hours of privacy, light a candle and go through the items in the box. As you're lighting the candle, remind yourself that the flame in this relationship has gone out. Know that new flames may come and go, but at one point, a flame so large will come that it will extinguish all past flames. When you're going through the box of items, remember this is a time to acknowledge the past, but keep in mind that it is the past. When you are comfortable, put everything back in the box and blow out your candle. Say a goodbye to your past love and get rid of the box. Give it to a friend, if you want to keep certain mementos for later on. Or, bury it or throw it out somewhere outside of your home.

*Tying Up Loose Ends
Was their something you wanted to tell your past love? Are there feelings or words trapped inside of you that you just need to get out? The best way to let these emotions free is by writing them down. Get out a pen and a paper and write a letter to your past love telling them everything you want them to know. Don't leave out anything. When you are done, fold it up and keep it in a special place. Do NOT give it to them. This is for your own personal, emotional release. You can also choose to burn the letter or rip it up as a ceremonial closure.

*Looking Towards The Future
If your heart is stuck in the past, its future can't be looking too bright. Instead of focusing on what you've lost, try to change your mental attitude to what you can have. Get a piece of paper and a pen and write down a list of things you can have now that you are single. Then write a list of things you want a future partner to have that your previous partner didn't have. Whenever you're feeling a loss about your past love, look over this list again to help redirect your thoughts.

*Out of Sight, Out of Mind
It is next to impossible to get over someone if you're constantly being reminded of them. If you have mementos of your relationship around your home, pack them up and get them out of sight. If you see your past love frequently at certain places, try to avoid them for a while. Similar to the above idea, steer your time and attention to things that help you create a happy life without your past love. Get involved in new groups or activities. Do things you have always wanted to that will keep your mind busy and away from what you're missing. Don't give in to the temptation to let the past be the center of your focus.

The biggest element to finding closure is finding your hope. Hope for the future. Hope for finding someone new who is an even better match than you could have dreamed for. Hope for your own happily, ever after. Once you've lost hope, you've given into the fact that destiny controls you, and not the other way around.

It's Not You, It's Me

*Ways to Regain Your Confidence after Being Dumped

You just got out of a relationship, and you're not feeling too good about yourself. Well, this isn't the time to mope around and wallow in self-pity! It’s time to turn over a new leaf and rediscover your self-confidence. With these helpful tips and ideas, you’ll be back on your feet in no time. Don’t get overwhelmed by trying to fit all of our ideas into one day, but don’t be lazy about it either. Breaking up is hard to do, and regaining your confidence after being dumped requires some work on your part. Get on your feet and take one step at a time toward the new and improved you!

*Make of List of Things You Love About Yourself
Make a list of 30 (or 31, one for each day of the month) things you love about yourself and post it on your bathroom mirror for a month. Each day, choose one of those things and repeat it to yourself as a positive affirmation throughout the day. Make yourself sticky notes and post them in your car, at your desk, in your wallet, on the fridge, whatever it takes to make you think positive thoughts about yourself. Even if you feel silly doing it, give it a try for a few days so you can see the effects of positive affirmations for yourself.

*Learn Something New
Try something you have always wanted to do. You will feel energized and excited, two things that aren’t easy to achieve when you are heartbroken.

*Take Care of Yourself
Eat healthy food in between the junk food binging, drink lots of water even if you'd rather have vodka, and rehydrate your swollen eyes with damp chamomile tea bags before looking in the mirror. Pamper yourself with a day at the spa or get a really good massage.

*Journal
Breaking up is one of the best times to start journaling. That way, when you have a lapse of judgment during a crying fit and can’t remember why you split, you have your own words to remind you. The other advantage is that putting your thoughts down on paper actually allows you to “teach” yourself the lessons to be learned from this experience. Don’t get hung up on what you could’ve done or what you wish you would’ve done differently. Stick to the positives. What have you gained from this relationship and the break-up that you didn’t have before? How have you grown as a person? What relationship skills do you have now that you will be able to use in future relationships?

*Laugh A Lot
is true that laughter is the best medicine, so surround yourself with witty, entertaining people, watch funny movies, read an Ellen DeGeneres book, or get a comedy CD to listen to while you do things around the house.

*Hang Out with Some Guy Friends
Don’t go swearing off men just because one of them broke your heart. Men make good friends, and they are very good at making a woman feel beautiful and sexy, even if you have no interest in each other beyond friendship. They give a good balance to your support network, so keep them around.

*Make Yourself an Online Profile
You probably shouldn’t start dating right away, but it’s a fun thing to do anyway. You’ll have to talk about yourself, which is a good way to get in touch with your real self again. You’ll get the attention of other guys, which is a good boost to the ego, and you’ll have something to do when you have trouble sleeping.

LOving yourSeLF...

Loving yourself is not always an easy thing to do simply because we think we are not "good enough" or we don't "deserve it". The truth is that everyone deserves a chance of happiness and love. I know that putting your heart out there after you are hurt is not always an easy thing (I speak from experience); because all the insecurities tend to creep up and so we close up because we don't want to take a chance that might be the start of something special. All of this to say if an opportunity presents itself don't be afraid to take a chance because you never know what might come out of it. I'm so glad it did!!
I wish everyone the best of luck!!

when it rains it pours...=)

I am very thankful to God for all the blessing he had given me. I got a good news today. First my team was rank one but we were disqualified due to absences. Its ok.. At least we tried our best. We can make it anytime. Second my crush and I talk, but he had no idea that he is my crush..hehe. Last but not the least. I was one of the top 10 agents in our account in MP. Rank 5. I was shock I thought they were just joking.I can't believe it because I'm not really paying attention to the boxes. I'm more of the talking. So can u believe that? Maybe its just that when I was down my attention was in the boxes that's why maybe I've provisioned a lot of boxes. Some say when your not lucky in your love life,but in you career you will be...That's definitely true I think. What do you think?...hehe.

AwFuL day..

Yes it was an awful day for me. I haven't reach my quota. For the first time!! I almost cried because of it and also it was all SIK boxes, meaning high def boxes. Its not that i don't know how to provision but there are a lot of codes. I hate it. Oh well, tomorrow is another day. So i need to double my quota. Need to work harder. Now, that I'm inspired again because of you? Who might that be?...haha.. Ehem..

SExy

what is SEXY? Sexy is standing in the rain as you push him against the hood of your car, tearing his shirt, as u kiss with the intent never to stop. What is CUTE? Cute is young and inexperienced. Its holding hands in the car and kissing at the red lights. What is PASSION? Its knowing what you want and stopping at nothing until you get it. What is LOVE? It’s the balance of all these things in your mind, heart, body and soul.

Thinking of you..

Got nothing to do at this moment. Just arrived from MCDO with my friend Anne together with her hubby Kentot. Had a chitchat with them. Still something is missing. Can't help it. He's always on my mind. I don't know why. I thought after the Guimaras trip I would be okay still I'm not. While writing this blog I'm listening to the song Always be my baby by Mariah. I'm starting to like this one. It reminds me of him. When i was in MCDo my friend gave me this letter from someone in my past. If only I can loved him the way he loved me. If only....but I can't. I can't do it. The perfect guy to be with but the thing is I don't have feelings for him anymore. I know karma strikes back anytime. Now I'm experiencing it. I know what he feels right now cause that's what I'm starting to feel. I want to say sorry for all the stupid things I've done still He's there for me. For hurting him. I hope he will move on. I'm not the right girl for him.. I will never be.. I'm thankful that once in my life someone love me so much. You will always be a part of my life. I will never forget you. I Hope you will find the right one for you.

Memories in gumiaRas

Nice place indeed. The accommodation was nice. It was a great place for a group of people like us (team O.T.O.G) one team one goal. It was first time to experience the so called team building. The food was great and yummy. I enjoy all kinds of sea foods which is my favorite viand. Then also our favorite pastime which is singing. Before that we travel from bacolod to pulupandan.It was my first time actually, to go to Guimaras via pulupandan. Time of arrival was 9am. The beach was awesome. Its a very relaxing place. Especially for us. Who work everyday provisioning boxes.Speaking of provisioning boxes we are aiming for rank 1 this week!! Goodluck guys. My Memories with you in Guimaras will always remain in my heart. It was a one hell of an experience. The games was fun. We enjoy each moment we're there. Last, Beer time!! The day is incomplete without the Beer. Cheers for Team O.T.O.G One team one goal.

Miss The sun..

Oh well, Im excited tomorrow we will be having our first team building. This will be held @ Guimaras. Can't wait for it..It will surely release all the stressors and problems for sure. Im looking forward that this will going to be fun, even though my friend TiN will not come. I'm sad but i understand her situation. This will be my first and last team building. I'm going to file my resignation next month. Surely, I'm going to miss you guys. I need to finish my studies first. So that I will be able to pursue the thing that I wanted and to be able to have a career as a nurse someday. I will show to you that I can do this without you in my life. For i will be successful. You'l see.

HOw To Mend A Broken Heart?

They say it will take time to mend a broken heart. Some say in order to forget that person who hurt you is to find another one. When I watched our Pageant in faces of MP. Many were asked about love. How will they describe their first love and the other one how to mend a broken heart. Which my friend teased me, she told me that i should answer that question. How can i answer that when even me can't answer it. I just laugh it out and pretend that i don't mind. Sooner or later i might have the answer to that question. For now, its like I'm still left hanging.....

MY New Blog

Got my new blog site...excited...=)